Lucid

It is a somewhat novel experience to have a non-forced schedule.  I wake up around 8, have breakfast before 9,  reading in the morning, lunch around 2, unstructured work in the afternoon, dinner before 8, and nothing to eat after that time.  It sound like I'm structuring my day around my meals, but actually I'm structuring my meals around my meds.

I think I'm done with withdrawal symptoms from the trazadone and the adderal.  I've been sleeping well and am alert after I wake.  This is a massive improvement.  I want to keep getting better, so I'm trying to not push myself too much.  The life changes I'm making, they are big ones, but I think as long as I don't try to do too many at one time I shouldn't have too many problems.

I'll be honest, I really don't know where my life is going right now.  Maybe it's midlife crisis or something, although I'm a little young for that, I think.  I've reached a point where I understand that I've done a lot of things for the wrong reasons.  Some of them are changeable, but the consequences are difficult to deal with.

I'm rambling.  I'm not sure what it is I want to say right now, just that there are things I need to deal with in my head and in my life, and I'm not sure where to start.