A year ago I was struggling with benzo withdrawal. I could not see beyond that process. I could not imagine what my life would look like.
Now I'm standing at the end of another year, completely benzo free. Yes, I still sometimes crave them, but it's not as intense as it once was, and I have hopes that it may fade entirely. Yes, I still have panic attacks. I'm still fighting with high levels of anxiety and extremely low self esteem. I'm only just returning to work after five months of being afraid to go back. I still have massive problems relating to people, and being honest about my feelings, and trusting my heart with anyone. My physical health is still a major concern. But.
I'm a few steps closer to functional than I was a year ago. That's nothing to sneeze at, I guess.
