I've been away for a bit, so no new posts. Gomen nasai...
The last few weeks have been rocky. I've been far more active than I am used to, have not been sleeping well, and my domestic schedule has gone off the rails. Also, I've started a new part time job.
Mostly I'm working just to see if I can. I crave solitude, and hate the impersonal... soul-emptiness of a cubicle farm. There are so many mental signatures, and the subliminal sound of hundreds of hearts beating and bodies protesting the silence with muffled coughs and sighs, the murmer of hushed phone conversations, and the constant unnatural tapping of keyboards and pens and copy machines tangled together in an inescapable drone that resonates within my very bones and makes focus difficult.
I'm hoping that this experiment will succeed, but part of me wants to fail. If I fail I can go back to my quiet, orderly life. I can work at my own pace, without deadlines, and in relative quiet. But, at this time, income is required, and I am doing my best to bring some in.
I truly wonder how people work and have social lives and manage to maintain their sanity.
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