Just a Beginner....

Just because I'm a writer doesn't mean I can write. I wake up every morning, trying to ignore the sunlight that happily shines in my window most days (after all, it is Phoenix, AZ - the Valley of the Sun) and try to catch the tail of my fading dream, especially ones that involve me and Tim Curry on an island in the pacific.

Alas, my attempts are in vain, and I have to struggle out of bed to spend the next sixteen hours fighting my greatest opponent - procrastination. I snuggle in bed, peeking occasionally at the clock, until I have eighteen minutes before I have to leave for school. At that point I jump out of bed, scurry to find something edible (thank god for leftover pizza) and jump into the shower. I ignore the carefully laid out rows of makeup jars on the bathroom counter and hastily pull my hair into a lazy bun while brushing my teeth and checking to see if I need to make an eyebrow wax appointment (it can wait a few days.)

I have allowed myself exactly enough time to get to school, barring any traffic or accidents or random road construction, guaranteeing that I will reach the parking lot three minutes before class. Of course, there is no parking close, so I park on the outside of the lot and sprint (yes, sprint) across the parking lot to my classroom.

Today's class is Japanese, and I know that I have my homework because it is the very last thing I did last night. Too bad I didn't read the work for today - conjugating adjectives. I'm still sleep fogged and can barely remember my alphabet. I stumble through class and make a note to study hard this afternoon.

Back home for a rest and to check my calendar: therapy, a group get-together, and at least two hours of studying (I hope.) Somehow I was supposed to put aside some time for writing, but once again I look at my clock and realize that I have somehow lost three hours doing...what?

I make a mental note to write at least one hour a day every day this weekend. I also note that I haven't been exercising or meditating. Somewhere in there I need to take care of my body and my mind.

I'm not on a deadline, and it's driving me crazy. I need to list the stories I want to finish before November, print and edit the ones that are finished, and get something up and posted.

But now, it's off I go again....